So I thought I would change it up a little and go into a little bit more detail and one thing people seem to always associate with depression and mental health is laziness, due not being able to get out of bed or not being able to do anything and so I thought I would start with the most asked and misunderstood thing we go through.
So there are days when I don’t want to get out of bed and I for sure do have these days most days but I have to get my ass up and go to work… even though the thought of it makes me feel sick to the stomach. So one of the most common things which come in to my mind when it comes to not getting out of bed is anxiety of course! Anxiety has a huge part to play and this is mainly due to completing thinking everyone is laughing at you, doesn’t like you and of course no-one doesn’t want to be around you.
Having depression and anxiety makes you exhausted! This makes you want to just sleep and not get out of bed, it is never as easy as just getting a good nights sleep. For me my anxiety makes me wake up time and time again throughout the night and feeling as though I have not had any sleep what so ever. The most confusing thing about it all is that at night you can’t sleep but as soon as it is time to get out of bed you could sleep for hours longer.
Not being able to get out of bed is feeling completely safe from the word in the comfort of your duvet. You don’t have to see anyone, speak to anyone and you can easily cry into your pillow without anyone even knowing. It is completely safe for us! There has been many of times where I have cried until my pillow has been completely wet and it is one of the best things for me at times…. I don’t have to explain why I am crying and can completely let it all come out. No need to hold back anymore. Being in your own bed is completely amazing as no-one will ever be able to tell you you’re not wanted there, you don’t feel like a burden anymore and life seems so much better under the duvet with your head in your pillows.
We are not lazy, you try going through the arguments and torment our minds put us through, not being able to walk away and this can start from the moment we wake up until the moment we go to sleep. Some of us even have this while we are asleep and I can tell you from experience this is the worst thing I have ever experienced when it comes to my mental health, being woken up screaming!
So next time you go to call someone with mental health lazy think again, it is not as easy as you think it is to go through all of this pain and torture.
*All my own photos