Italy

If you follow me on Instagram you would know that I have just come back from Italy. I always knew I would love Italy but after visiting I have utterly fallen in love. Me and my friend Samantha went to Verona for a little get away over Easter… it was overdue will all the stress of work and feeling as though life was starting to take control of me, rather than me taking control of life.

Sam had decided to that we should go to Verona and being someone who has always wanted to go to Italy I bit her hand off! It was inexpensive, only costing us around £120 for the 4 days… a bargain I know! Which meant I didn’t to worry too much about the money side of things… a bonus for good old anxiety me.

Verona is one of the most beautiful cities I have ever been to and for saying it had given out rain all weekend, we had glorious sunshine… this was a nice surprise when we arrived! Looking at the city through the sunshine made it more enjoyable as we did have to walk a good 30 minutes to the town centre from where we was stopping.

Going on holiday made all the worries/anxieties disappear for a while… I honestly didn’t think this was possible being someone who gets anxious over the littlest of things. Being able to take in what the world has to offer made my mind clear and see what ‘could be’. There were a few moments of anxiety but we will go into this later, so for now I will share some photos which I took along my trip.









Italy has got to one of the most beautiful places I ever have been to and I will be going back again thats for sure… take me now please! I am having some serious holiday blues! Before going I was told how expensive it was and I have to say I did not think it was too pricey at all. Don’t get me wrong Venice was a bit pricey at times but in Verona the cost for a pizza was around 7/8 Euros and that’s nothing when you think about how much you would pay for a dominos, so I was very impressed.

Recently finding my love for wine again I was very happy to see the price of wine was the same as getting a soft drink, so I thought it would be rude not to have a few glasses while out for dinner in Italy. You really cannot go wrong with a good glass of Rosé.

The 4 days I spent around €200, but this was for everything including a bit of retail shopping, eating out every night… eating my weight in Pizza. Paying for trips to certain places such as Venice and museums, also buying all food and drink for the long weekend. Personally I don’t think I did too bad money wise and it didn’t cost too much at all.




Suffering with mental health the day to day stresses can become all too overwhelming and well going away to Italy was time for me to have some ‘me’ time and “become one” with myself as they say. Italy made me realise that there is more to life than just work and stress. It allowed me to see all the beautiful things the world has to offer. I am so excited to see all the other parts of a planet, there is definitely more to life than you think and seeing the world is definitely showing me this.

Waking up on our third day in Italy I could start to feel the anxiety kicking in and poor Sam had to put up with me, she was good! I felt as though going to Venice on the train was a mammoth of a task and I just had to make sure that I took my medication and had some breathing time to prepare myself for the journey. On the train I could feel myself getting more and more worked up… I knew what I needed to do! Close my eyes and do some breathing exercises. Little did I know that due to the lack of sleep the night before from the anxiety attacks which decided to take me by surprise I fell asleep on the train and before I knew it Sam was waking me telling me we had arrived! Well it sure made the anxiety disappear! Next you know it, we was in Venice eating Pizza… I have learnt I do love a good Italian Pizza!


This photo really does capture my holiday experience



Overall Italy allowed me to take some time away from all the day to day anxieties and really gave me time to focus on me. It did make coming home a lot harder than I originally thought. Going away has really given me the chance to see how good life can be and has for sure given me so many reasons to see why life is worth living.

For those of you who are suffering you are not alone and there is so much in live for you live for, don’t let things get you down. Remember if this was any other illness yo would speak out so let’s stamp out the stigma and join me on my road to recovery.

*All photos are my own

This Is Me

Everyone has had a song which has made them feel empowered right?

Well recently I came across a song which I am sure you have all heard of… This is me – The greatest Showman soundtrack and this is a song which has really empowered me and allowed me some time to think.

I can hear you some of you thinking… it’s just a song don’t be silly! Well you couldn’t be more wrong. The lyrics really do empower me and allow me to really accept me for me at that moment in time. It does stay with me for a little while just not all day unfortunately.

As soon as the song starts you get the lyrics “I am no stranger of the dark, Hideaway, they say ‘Cause we don’t want you broken parts. I have learned to be ashamed of all my scars. Run away, they say, No one will love you as you are” This is something I can highly relate to being someone who suffers with mental health I have always been embarrassed and never want to mention this to people and I think with the society we do live in there is such a stigma which means that we start to feel that we are ‘damaged goods’. I find it hard to mention to new people that I am someone who does suffer. As times go on we become good at hiding away and being on our own with our troubles and this should never be the case. It is far too dangerous for our health to hideaway from in the dark, but that’s what it is it all dark and we need to try and bring some light into that space. This can be done by speaking to someone and helping bring you out of the dark space.

The first part of the song I think a lot of us suffering can relate to. We shouldn’t be the ones hiding, as we should never be ashamed of our troubles. We all go through hard times and this does not make us weak, if anything we are stronger for actually speaking out and talking to someone about these issues. Remember, you are a lot stronger than you believe, you are loved and someone will accept you for who you are.

 We all have broken parts, it might be that some people don’t seem to have any broken parts but I can tell you now most us have ‘broken parts’ it is part of being a human being. People just don’t like to show them to us as they feel ashamed, just like we can be about our mental health.

This song has so many depths to it. As the song goes on it shows are we should be proud of all of our ‘damaged’ parts. The lyrics just speak for themselves “I wont let them break me down to dust, I know that there’s a place for us for we are glorious. When the sharpest words wanna cut me down I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown ’em out. I am brave. I am bruised. I am who I am meant to be. This is me!

This song encourages us to be proud of every single part of us. If you are having a moment where you’re doubting yourself or feeling a little late then make sure you go and have a moment to listen to this song, as you are in charge of your own happiness and if you don’t believe in yourself then how can you expect anyone else to believe in you. Mental health can strip you of your identity if you let it, don’t let it, it is just a little part of you but it is not who you are!

This songs reminds you to celebrate all the little things that make you, YOU!

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