Italy

If you follow me on Instagram you would know that I have just come back from Italy. I always knew I would love Italy but after visiting I have utterly fallen in love. Me and my friend Samantha went to Verona for a little get away over Easter… it was overdue will all the stress of work and feeling as though life was starting to take control of me, rather than me taking control of life.

Sam had decided to that we should go to Verona and being someone who has always wanted to go to Italy I bit her hand off! It was inexpensive, only costing us around £120 for the 4 days… a bargain I know! Which meant I didn’t to worry too much about the money side of things… a bonus for good old anxiety me.

Verona is one of the most beautiful cities I have ever been to and for saying it had given out rain all weekend, we had glorious sunshine… this was a nice surprise when we arrived! Looking at the city through the sunshine made it more enjoyable as we did have to walk a good 30 minutes to the town centre from where we was stopping.

Going on holiday made all the worries/anxieties disappear for a while… I honestly didn’t think this was possible being someone who gets anxious over the littlest of things. Being able to take in what the world has to offer made my mind clear and see what ‘could be’. There were a few moments of anxiety but we will go into this later, so for now I will share some photos which I took along my trip.









Italy has got to one of the most beautiful places I ever have been to and I will be going back again thats for sure… take me now please! I am having some serious holiday blues! Before going I was told how expensive it was and I have to say I did not think it was too pricey at all. Don’t get me wrong Venice was a bit pricey at times but in Verona the cost for a pizza was around 7/8 Euros and that’s nothing when you think about how much you would pay for a dominos, so I was very impressed.

Recently finding my love for wine again I was very happy to see the price of wine was the same as getting a soft drink, so I thought it would be rude not to have a few glasses while out for dinner in Italy. You really cannot go wrong with a good glass of Rosé.

The 4 days I spent around €200, but this was for everything including a bit of retail shopping, eating out every night… eating my weight in Pizza. Paying for trips to certain places such as Venice and museums, also buying all food and drink for the long weekend. Personally I don’t think I did too bad money wise and it didn’t cost too much at all.




Suffering with mental health the day to day stresses can become all too overwhelming and well going away to Italy was time for me to have some ‘me’ time and “become one” with myself as they say. Italy made me realise that there is more to life than just work and stress. It allowed me to see all the beautiful things the world has to offer. I am so excited to see all the other parts of a planet, there is definitely more to life than you think and seeing the world is definitely showing me this.

Waking up on our third day in Italy I could start to feel the anxiety kicking in and poor Sam had to put up with me, she was good! I felt as though going to Venice on the train was a mammoth of a task and I just had to make sure that I took my medication and had some breathing time to prepare myself for the journey. On the train I could feel myself getting more and more worked up… I knew what I needed to do! Close my eyes and do some breathing exercises. Little did I know that due to the lack of sleep the night before from the anxiety attacks which decided to take me by surprise I fell asleep on the train and before I knew it Sam was waking me telling me we had arrived! Well it sure made the anxiety disappear! Next you know it, we was in Venice eating Pizza… I have learnt I do love a good Italian Pizza!


This photo really does capture my holiday experience



Overall Italy allowed me to take some time away from all the day to day anxieties and really gave me time to focus on me. It did make coming home a lot harder than I originally thought. Going away has really given me the chance to see how good life can be and has for sure given me so many reasons to see why life is worth living.

For those of you who are suffering you are not alone and there is so much in live for you live for, don’t let things get you down. Remember if this was any other illness yo would speak out so let’s stamp out the stigma and join me on my road to recovery.

*All photos are my own

Escaping

If your suffering with mental illness you will know how nice it can feel as though you can escape as it’s not always that easy when it’s inside your head!

Well I have been able to escape in sunny Thailand while on holiday with my friend to celebrate her 30th. Not going to lie I didn’t think this was possible. I never thought I would be able to get myself to Manchester from Derby. Never mind get on 2 planes and have to fly for 15 hours which didn’t go to plan! But I will explain that on another post as that’s another story!

So I’ve just arrived back from my holiday and I have to say it was lovely to get away no day-to-day stresses getting me down… however, there was plenty of stresses involved with going away but they seem a bit of a distance memory now. I will explain more about those stresses as it could be a very long post. I will advise it is all about things that went wrong on the way this was due to the airline and the travel company though.

Being on holiday made me realise how lucky I am to be where I am. I have very good friends and family around me and I REALLY did miss them. Especially my dad.. (he is my rock). I was still able to enjoy myself even being so far away from home, which I didn’t really think was possible. I have been lucky enough to see some of the beautiful places which are around Phuket, Thailand (I will share photos in due course). I was able to see my favourite animal up close and feed it…. it was a dream of a lifetime. If you’re wondering it was feeding an elephant and it was incredible. One thing I will say is that if you are going away somewhere so far please ensure that you are prepared for the long journey. It was something which wasnt good for me… not being able to sleep at the best of times and then being 6 hours ahead really threw me off. The flight was difficult for me to sleep on but once I had arrived at the hotel I was able to get some quality sleep.

I would highly recommend anyone who is feeling a little trapped to escape especially those who are feeling low and a little inadequate. Make sure you have someone with you who will be there if you need someone to talk to… I would not recommend going away on your own as this can leave to a lot of thinking time (this can sometimes turn out bad). Even if you are just going somewhere near by to camp or just go for a nice relaxing weekend, I would say it is worth doing once every few months as it allows us to really think about what we want and what we have. Sometimes it allows us to see the good in our life, which isn’t possible for us to do alot of the time.

I have come back enjoying the little thing such as just sitting at home with my family, being able to sleep when I want and not be woken up by housekeeping. Having dinner and a cuppa with my dad… I have missed just having the morning chats with friends and family. Missed listening to the radio… we never seemed to have this on holiday strange I know. I have missed the feeling of carpet on my toes, I am very strange I know. But all these little things have made me realise how lucky I am, don’t get me wrong I am still no prefect and still having to deal with my issues. I am slowly getting there but going on holiday has allowed me to really appreciate more things than I could.

What do you appreciate when you’ve been away from home for a while?

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