Round up!


Events of the Day – Chilling and meeting my friend

Mood – Good

Bad moments? – The only bad moment would be having an anxiety attack before bed and not knowing what caused it! No matter what I tried it wouldn’t go away, it took me hours to get the sleep and ended up becoming more and more frustrated

Good moments? – Going to see my friend and have a good old catch up as I hadn’t seen her for a while. Going to her mums and having a nice cuppa.

Getting back in touch with a friend I haven’t seen in over 4 years!


Events of the day – Work and meeting a friend

Mood – Anxious as hell!

Good moments? – Would have to be meeting up with a friend I haven’t seen in so long… I think it is always nice to see someone you lost touch with. It is always brilliant when you just pick up where you left off and lucky enough for me there was no awkward moments!

Bad moments? – Feeling anxious all day and not really knowing why! Feeling as though my whole body was set to vibrate, making me feel more and more sick as the day went on. People starting to notice I was becoming more and more irritated and even snapping at some of those I care about most.


Events of the day – Work and wine!

Mood – Positive

Good moments? – Going to meet my childhood friend for a good catch up and of course a few bottles of wine! I always feel so happy once I’ve had a few drinks down me…. don’t get me wrong this is not a way to deal with my issues but it is nice once in a blue moon. I only drink once or twice every few months!

Bad moments? – Feeling on edge all evening as there was a lot of police in my village, which is very unusual! This automatically put me on alert and of course this ended up putting a downer on my day due to the littlest of things. Oh how anxiety can change your day in a matter of seconds, those who suffer as bad as I do at times will understand this!


Events of the day – Work and seeing my niece.

Mood – A little bit down in the dumps.

Good moments? – Well this isn’t a hard one at all. I would be seeing my gorgeous niece! She was so exited to see me and had me drawing with her, she is one adorable little girl, she is nearly 2 years old and is going to be a hand full when she gets older, she has so much energy its unreal.

Bad moments? – Feeling like I was getting ill. Everyone at work is coming down with coughs and cold and I felt as though it was hitting me! So wasn’t a good day.


Events of the day – Work and PrezzyBox event in Nottingham

Mood – Anxious as hell!

Good moments? – Going to the event even though I felt riddled with anxiety so this was a big thing for me and felt very proud of myself after. The event itself was amazing and had such a good catch up with a old friend Samantha

Bad moments? – Feeling as sick as a dog while at work… I was working myself up for the event the amount of times I sat and said I didn’t want to go because of the anxiety was unreal! I made myself feel really poorly it was unreal!


Events of the day – Work and Chilled evening

Mood – Down… I know this week has been a Debbie Downer week!

Good moments? – Having a early night and going for coffee with my best one.

Bad moments? – Well Friday was not a good day for me! I was extremely anxious again! I felt as though my life was tumbling down, feeling as though no matter what I do it wasn’t good enough… I hate these days. I ended up crying most of the night and I even tried to watch some funny films but they just made me cry more….. I have no idea how that happened!

I felt defeated and everyone was against me, no matter what I did nothing seemed to snap me out of it.


Events of the day – Cinema with a friend

Mood – Poorly.

Good moments? – Meeting up with a close work friend who is going through a bit of a tough time. We just had a laugh and of course it cheered me up… we all have those friends who can do that don’t we? Well I am lucky enough to have Steve as a friend and well he for sure made me feel a lot better and made me realise what I have accomplished over the past few months and well I am proud of myself.

Bad moments? – Waking up and feeling as though my throat was razor blades. It felt as though I was getting ill, not what I want with a busy week next week and well not on my weekend!!

How has your week been?

*All my own photos


Stay positive

IMG_1693.jpgOver the past couple of months there have been times when I couldn’t even think of anything positive at all and wasn’t in the best of places, but there is one thing for sure and that is I have come to the conclusion there is always a silver lining in what ever the situation is or how bad it can be.

“You’re a Diamond Dear, they can’t break you”

So I wanted to spread some positivity around and show that no matter what life throws at you try to see the positive side of it. Try and use an escape whether that’s watching films, going out with friends, having girly nights or just spending time reading a book. You need to ensure that you have your realise this will ensure no matter what happens you will be able to get your head around these situations or help you look at it from another perspective…. this is very important.

I am a huge sufferer of anxiety and this can be difficult at times with people looking at you in certain ways or saying negative comments. But I have learnt that sometimes just taking a moment to breathe can make a huge of a difference to your state of mind.

Don’t get me wrong I need to go to external parties to help me with my anxiety/issues as these are something which are a little deeper than just having a bad day. However, there are things I do myself to help with mindfulness and keep me going when I feel like enough is enough…


This is not just for children anymore you can even get ones with swearwords if this makes you feel better. You will be surprised at how much of a difference this can make.

Writing your feelings down.

If I am feeling over whelmed I will write letters to friends or family, but most of the time I will just sit and write until everything I am feeling it rushing through my fingers onto the computer. You don’t half feel better after.

Watching a film.

When I say watching a film this has to be something you are interested in, so for me it will be a psychological horror or I will just find a documentary on ghosts. Wooooo scary!!


I know I thought it was a load of rubbish to start with but I have to say this has made such a difference to me just by focusing on my breathing and let me take my mind of everything. I suffer with anxiety worse at night so I will do this just before bed and I always end up having the best nights sleep. One of the apps I use on my iPhone is Headspace and it’s amazing.


But if you’re doing this at night don’t read from your phone. It’s not good for winding down. I would recommend that you get a magazine or a good book which you can sink your teeth into. It will make all the difference, I have never been much of a reader but this has really turned a corner for me and has made me appreciate those times when I can sit back in silence with a book. No more random television programmes.


These are all ways you can stay positive and really do some mindfulness work. The best thing to do though if you’re having a bad day is right all the things you have going for you, it could be something as simple as having a great bunch of friends around you. Don’t let the bad mood beat you down and keep going, life is far too short you never know whats around the corner. You want to be as positive as you can be to make sure that you can live your life to the full and don’t let anyone get you down.

If people do try to get you down you just want to mental tell them to do one as your made of stronger stuff than to let them get you down and most of the time its their own insecurities coming out which you are being targeted with. Don’t let them see they have defeated you as no-one deserves to be made to feel bad about themselves because someone else is having  a hard time or just is a nasty piece of work. Trust me I have been there and if you let them get to you down, its hard to let it go… 10 years on and I still hear those bullies telling me I am worthless and fat. It’s hard to escape.. you need/must stay positive to get the best out of the life you have been given!

What do you do to help with mindfulness and staying positive?